The definition of LOVE

“I love you” means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. 

It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. 

It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. 

“I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. 

It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. 

It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.

Broken

When you lose someone, someone you love.

When they break your heart.

It’s the hardest thing you could ever go through.

And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away.

You may think you’re getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest.

You fall apart, for the hundredth time.

And you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out.

You love this person with all of your heart, even though you know you shouldn’t.

They hurt you worse than you’ve ever been hurt.

They stole your happiness.

But yet, you still want them, and only them.

Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don’t want to.

It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promise you never would.

And even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours.

On top of that, you’re terrified.

Terrified of getting hurt again.

But it’s not like it matters anyway.

At the end of the day you’re still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken.

You don’t want to miss them anymore.

You don’t want to love them anymore.

But you know you always will.

Big-City life

When you live in a big city like I do, you need to put up with some sort of bad stuff.

Like polution, cigarrates, all those environmental problems.

And lifestyle, which big cities seems cool to other while actually it's NOT.

Some social jerks, who pretended to be a good friend of your then in all of a sudden the stab you from behind like it was no big deal.

Such a life, isn't it?

Talk about environment. Polution is one of the biggest environmental problem. Cigars, cars, factories, just to name a few.

Smokers, driven by our genes, they are simple selfish beings. Why? Because the didn't just kill themself with their cigar, but also people around them. Mostly their family. And to make it worse, slowly.

Cars. Big-city daily need. We just couldn't live without it. Thus it made polution to air really bad. We are probably used to it, but we never really realized how bad it is for out health, do we?

Factories also finished up with a huge dirt. The dirt went on to rivers and sea, and it really didn't work out. Boom! The rivers goes dark and smells. Not a nice one. At all.

Littering. I myself sometimes litter. It's just those times when I can't be bothered to walk to the bin, so I littler while I walked and pretended nothing happened. I'm not the only one in this universe who did that, so the world are filthy by now, I regretted.

Big-city lifestyle. Wake up in the morning. Grab anything on the table to eat, not to mention if it's nutritious or not, because you didn't even care. Leaving without saying bye. Then go to school unhesitatingly. After to school is done, you make your way to the central of the city. Have fun until it's late. Then go home sleepily. Your parents would probably be home by then, they would probably be asleep. Still, unhesitatingly you'll go to your rooms. And sleep, getting ready for another same rough day. It wasn't a sweet picture after all.

And watch out for the social jerks around you. They could be very friendly, very caring and very great, as great as a best friend could be. But it won't last a long time. Just wait until you find out that they are using you. You'll meet many of them. You need to be careful. Or you'll be very very sorry.

How do we handle all of this?

Reading it all, we couldn't possibly live like this. Or could we? Well, I could. But I live with fears. I spent my life trying to just deal with it, but I can't. But then I thought, I should've just start from myself. Then maybe I could change my family, and then my friends, and maybe someday the world will change. And now I'll try to change. I promise. Let's start like a newborn baby, and hopefully we'll be a better human being, living in a wonderful world :)

A Remake Show

Bonjour!


After a long break, I decided to remake my blog. I've read all the late post and thought it was not much than an old tales. So BOOM! I deleted all the post and start off as a new one.

I'll try to make it fun. But my definition of fun might be a bit different than yours. I'm a freak, you see. and that's about all. Enjoy!